BROKEN

Leaving you was difficult. But it had to be done. It's not fair to be with someone when he only has half of your heart. When I've lost the fireworks and the passion--elements that keep a relationship alive.

Please let me find myself and pick up the pieces again. If in time, we really are meant to be then I'll find myself crawling back to you. Whether you accept me again or not, then at least I found myself.


Lessons in life are best learned the hard way anyway...

You are my angel, always have and always will. I am crying as I type this...


But for now, I am signing off. Hoping for the best. Hoping to regain the other half of my heart. Hoping to be better...

For me and hopefully for us.

Back!

My blog has been on "idle" mode for a while now. The main reason being this:

Things went smoothly so I'm not complaining! My bitch Pam's wedding was a beautiful one and I cried and cried at the wedding! And then I ate and ate at the reception! Lavish it was and this couple definitely knows how to throw a par-tayyyy! It's a good thing I wore my flowing bias cut gown or my exploding tummy would have been evident after downing all those prawns!:

(With bride and bitchmate Pamee in her 2nd dress, also by me of course!)

And now moving on to other exciting projects such as the upcoming L.A. based online store Dog.And.Bat. Expect my ready-to-wear pieces there soon! :)

"Dream Sprouts"

As promised, here are photos of my S/S 2009 Fashion Week collection (thanks to the talented TSARD CHUA!).


A collection aptly entitled "DREAM SPROUTS", I was inspired by my yo-yo circle placemat project back in 4th grade. It is a very girly collection embellished with dreamy circlettes and origami squares--all in pastels.


FABRICATION: Japanese jusi, crepe, linen, taffeta, plain chiffon (all materials c/o my lovely supplier in New Jersey)








COLORS: Cream, Mint Green, Navy Blue, Rich Blue, Pale Pink



SHOES BY:
Would also like to thank everyone who came to watch Luxewear B as well as apologize to my clients and friends whom I didn't get to talk to after the show. I was sick as a dog and harassed backstage that night. :-(





Kisses,
Cza

Games, Games, Games

In life, we are all playing a game. At work. At school. With your friends. With the opposite sex. We all have a Chuck and Blair in all of us. Strategies differ but the goal is all the same: to WIN.


Other players are aggressive, some choose to be on the defensive side. Others like to wait it out, and go in for the kill when the prey is caught off-guard. Others pretend to be on the same team when they are actually double agents.


It's funny, these games people play. I find myself playing once more after ages of dormant existence in the ball game. Quite rusty but doing good I suppose. Being on the defensive side, I choose to act based on my opponent's next move. The upside being I am usually on the safe side, the downside being I am usually the impatient party if the opponent is taking too long to make a move. They say that offense is your best defense. I say I'm too chicken shit to find out.


So what's your next move cowboy?

Left Or Right

I'm filled with tempting thoughts that I never thought existed at the back of my head. Fueling my confusion and adding to my impatience. Do I take the road on the left or the right? Should I stick to this road or make a turn towards a far more exciting route that I am absolutely unsure of?


He doesn't know what I'm talking about. Noone knows what I'm talking about. Because that's exactly it... a secret I cannot reveal, a nagging thought in my head that I try to forget about every single day.


Maybe I'm plain crazy. Maybe I'm just an asshole. Or maybe I have just been taking way too much antibiotics. Damn this typhoid fever. Damn him. Damn this situation.

Loving It

Noone else wears this dress like she can!! Judy is so happenin'!!



Thanks for the photo, Jane! :-)

ENOUGH

Not that I owe anyone any explanation regarding my actions but I am writing this to put an end to all the questions and messages I've been getting.

NO, I didn't want to dig up skeletons and old issues because I want to get back at him. I wanted to know because I knew it was a friend and now I am right, it was a "friend". One who I trusted and confided to. One who also backstabbed me in unimaginable ways. Perhaps he was laughing inside while I cried and he even gave me advice. Advice that he was later going to use as ammunition against me.

I have already moved on career-wise. Whatever I lost, is lost. I just want to be more careful now. And that person can't harm me again.

Yes I agree with the person who told me that it is an issue that has closed months ago. It was the site that closed. But this to me is an issue of real friendship and it is only now that it has concluded in my part.

I do not wish to pick a fight with anyone. Not even him because what's the use. I believe in forgiveness and I can only wish him well.

This is the last time I will speak about this issue. Enough.

Judy Aldridge

A few months ago I sent over some of my creations to the very chic Jane and Judy Aldridge of Sea Of Shoes mainly for the reason that I am a fan of their style and of course, their shoe collection!

My sissy Martin called me earlier saying Mabuhay Girl blogged about Judy Aldridge in my Fashion Week A/W 2009 rust number. So I rushed back to the shop from the fabric store and voila!

This is one of the pieces I sent over...

Now this definitely made my day. :-)

Going Old Skool

It is already mid October and I haven't blogged anything yet. Blame it on my long working hours now that Philippine Fashion Week S/S 2009 is just around the corner. Would just like to share with you my inspiration: My 4th grade yo-yo circle placemat project.

Don't expect any placemats or furnishings from me anytime soon though. Tweaked in a few other ideas and vamped it up a bit for originality purposes. Runway photos to be posted at the end of October.

Luxewear B of the Philippine Fashion Week is on October 25, 7:30 PM at the SMX Convention Center.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY ANGEL!

He is perhaps the only person who knows me inside out...



Tolerates my crazy fickle mindedness and other annoying traits...


Loves me unconditionally...




Drives me around (and tolerates my driving)...



My ever supportive, loyal fan who would sacrifice his own time and energy just to take me to fashion errands and events...


The only man who ever really got me and whom I am willing to give up anything for...


HAPPY 26th BIRTHDAY my angel ARLEE!!! :-)